I’ve been having eye issues lately—teary, watery eyes. I understand that every physical manifestation is simply an indicator of what’s going on vibrationally, but you’d think that knowing that, I would have done some soul searching sooner. I actually took the action journey first—tried eye drops, both antihistamine and antibiotic and believe me when I say I did my fair share of complaining.
But finally the other day after this dragging on for almost three months, I started to look inside. I had been asking questions: “Why me?” “What’s this all about?” “What am I doing wrong?” and generally beating up on myself for not finding the alignment and therefore the wellbeing that I know deep-down is my birthright.
So the other day I changed my line of questioning and answers came very quickly. I asked myself what emotional issues matched the physical issue I was experiencing and started making correlations between the two. This is the process as it unfolded and ultimately what I discovered.
Eye➠seeing, sight, insight, understanding, knowing
Lack of sight➠lack of insight or understanding
Cloudy/blurred vision➠can’t see clearly, can’t see a way for something to happen
Problem is worse outdoors➠outside, outside what?
- outside my comfort zone?
- outside my safety net?
- outside the box?
All of this seemed insightful, but didn’t really resonate with me. So I probed deeper.
Only my right eye is affected➠right (being right, need to be right?)
➠Right body/left brain (thinking, rationalizing, organized,reasoning side of me)
Eye➠I (capital I, me)
- sense of self
- beingness vrs Beingness
- who am I?
- self worth
I’d hit on something. I could feel that this was the root of the problem. It felt like a huge issue—one that I’ve dealt with (or grappled with but not resolved) many time over the years. I decided that I wanted to really look at the issue this time with complete honesty and find a way to change my vibration
This is the conversation I had with my inner Being (using left hand writing):
(right hand) “I (eye)’m not clear. What is it I’m not clear about?”
(left hand) “What do you want?”
“Why do you always answer a question with another question?”
“Questions evoke answers. Answers are within”
“But you know the answer”
“So do you – you and I are one.”
“It seems to always come back to this.”
“Maybe because this is what you’re not clear on.”
“Really? This is it?”
“I (eye) dentity!”
I gave it a lot of thought, knowing it was truth and knowing it was the answer I had been seeking, just not clear on how to apply it.
The next day I summed up what I was feeling in another two handed conversation (I find these to be very powerful!) and asked the question:
“So how can I see myself (and everything else) through the eyes of Source?”
“Change that to the ‘I’ of Source – that’s where the issue is. You are the ‘I’ of Source.”
That one statement was a powerful Aha! I knew it to be true, could feel it resonate deeply. So my work now is to remind myself over and over of who I am.
I AM THE EYE ‘I’ OF SOURCE!
My inner Being confirmed it with the following conversation:
“It’s not an issue to be debated. It’s who you are. It can’t be changed. You can never be less than who you really are.”
“But I can feel ‘less than’ and convince myself it’s true just because I feel it.”
“A story isn’t true just because it’s been told over and over or written down for all to see.”
“So I just tell a different story—a better story. Why are the answers always the same? I know this stuff!!”
“Don’t just talk about telling a different story. Do it. Start telling it right now.”
So I started telling the story differently, but as many of you can relate, a new story can sound phony at first. My inner critic is bringing up a lot of objections, but I’m telling him where to go. I can do this. I deserve to know the truth and live the truth of who I AM.
I (EYE) AM GAINING CLARITY
I (EYE) AM BEGINNING TO UNDERSTAND (SEE) WHO I AM
I (EYE) SEE ALL I NEED TO SEE IN ANY GIVEN MOMENT
I (EYE) AM SEEING MORE ALL THE TIME
I (EYE) CAN SEE THE SOURCE OF MY WELLBEING
I (EYE) AM THE I (EYE) OF SOURCE
I (EYE) KNOW WHO I AM
I (EYE) CAN SEE MY TRUE REALITY
I (EYE) CAN SEE PAST WHAT ‘IS’ (WHAT SEEMS TO BE)
I (EYE) CAN SEE WHAT CAN BE (WHAT TRULY IS)
I MOVE FORWARD WITH CONFIDENCE, EASE, SAFETY AND JOY.
I AM ALL THAT I NEED. I AM ENOUGH!!
Knowing this I, here and now, make a pledge to myself to honor and uplift that which I AM! I will not devalue myself or allow myself to feel ‘less than.’ I will see myself in others and see others as a reflection of me. I will endeavor to ‘be’ who I AM, whether in the comfort and safety of my private space, or in the midst of many. I will make the JOY OF BEING my ultimate goal and see all other outcomes as merely a reflection of my choice of focus. I (eye) will strive to see good (God) in all and to see my choices and activities as being divinely orchestrated. I can do no wrong. I can make no mistakes. I can never be less than that which I AM. I AM the power and presence of the beloved energy Source I know as God. And so it is!