Last month, I was kind of negative on taking action, mentioning that Abraham doesn’t talk too much about their processes anymore. Well, now I have to eat my words because they’ve come out with a new DVD called The Processes of Creation. I haven’t received it yet, but am eagerly awaiting it – as I do all of Abe’s new stuff!! On top of that our LOA discussion group this month is on processes, tried and true techniques for getting in the vortex.
But this is where I want to make a distinction. I want to point out the subtle difference between doing to see physical results, and doing to feel better (to get in the vortex). For years, I diligently did all the things Abraham recommended: did the wallet process, kept a book of positive aspects, kept a creation box, tried focus wheels, turned it over to the manager, climbed up the emotional scale…and most of these I abandoned relatively quickly because I saw no tangible results.
What I didn’t get right away was that my efforts were in vain (or produced little result) because I did them with the wrong intent. One area I did have success in was moving up the emotional scale and overcoming depression. Because my intent in doing the processes in this case was to feel better, I saw results – powerful results – in a relatively short time.
It’s been years now since I’ve felt anything close to depression. I experience joy on a daily basis and my life is magical in so many ways. But this past week I had the opportunity to see again how easy it is to spiral downward.
Thoughts are energy – each have their own vibrational frequency – and are controlled by the powerful Law of Attraction. So I understand how letting certain thoughts go unchecked can produce negative results quickly. But I also got to apply the processes that for me are tried and true.
My mom had a stroke this week. She’s 87 and has been slowly making her transition for a while now, and I have been preparing myself, but still, the news hit hard. The hardest part for me at this point is knowing we’ve never been close. I tried to distance myself a few years ago as I searched for my own well-being, and every time we were together, I felt myself being sucked back into that place I didn’t want to be anymore, so we saw less and less of each other. Token visits, guarded conversations, and me side-stepping the guilt pretty much describes our relationship over the past several years.
Anyway enough about that. What I really wanted to share here was how I observed this process – both the spiralling down and climbing back up deliberately. I truly was an observer and it was a cool place to be. It didn’t feel out of control like I did in the past. I knew I was choosing to think thoughts that weren’t serving me, knew that I could stop them, but I let them go – almost on purpose.
Maybe I just wanted to experience the contrast. Maybe, knowing I was in control, I took a walk on the dark side, just to see the difference, to appreciate the light. I don’t know. Whatever the reason, the experience served me. When I finally said, “ENOUGH!” and reminded myself of the truths I’d some to know, it didn’t take long at all. I reached for thoughts within my vibrational range. Joy wasn’t accessible yet, but I managed to find hope easily enough. I stayed there awhile enjoying the relief it brought as I imagined the possibility of reuniting with my mom – whether in the physical or once she’s made her transition – I know that it’s never too late.
She’s in Saskatchewan, and I couldn’t be with her but I imagined being by her side and holding her hand – telling her she’s not alone and allowing myself to feel the love that my Inner Being feels for both of us. Joy flooded in quickly at that point and I felt the connection that I’d longed for all these years. I’d moved up the emotional scale!
I also did another process that has served me over the years. I call it the power transfer. I first leaned of it when I read Busting Loose, by Robert Scheinfeld, but I’ve adapted it to serve me. It’s a simple technique of feeling the power of the negative emotion – I mean really feeling it in the pit of my stomach and holding it there, viscerally feeling the power that it seems to hold, observing it for a few seconds – and then with words of acknowledgement that I created the situation and ultimately hold the power, I imagine the power flowing back to me, surging through me and filling me, causing me to expand to become all that I am. It never fails to lift my vibration.
So I’m appreciative of the processes I’ve learned because for me they are tried and true. They work. I’m looking forward to talking more about his in our meeting this month and hearing others’ stories.
Join us: Wednesday Feb 23, 2011 at Self Connection Books. see www.selfconnection.ca to register or for more details.