Looking back at how certain things have come to me, I see an interesting pattern. I determine that I want something and focus on it, visualize, etc, but even while I feel I am in the vortex, and have released resistance, that thing is still a long time in coming. Then something changes and my desire manifests. The pattern I’m noticing is that the manifestation is slightly different (and always better) than what I thought I wanted.
I think what’s happening is that my desires are so complex, having been added to and amended over time, that I can’t see them clearly. And often I focus on only a part, when the over-all desire has facets and components I’m not aware of.
Years ago, I recall Abraham saying something like: “If you put blue and then yellow into the mix, what you end up with is green.” The problem is we don’t know we want green, we still think we want blue and as long as we stay focused on blue, we can’t receive either. Blue alone is no longer a vibrational match. Green may come our way numerous times but we can’t see it because we’re focused on blue.
I know it’s just fine tuning (or my over-analytical mind wanting to figure things out) but I find this fascinating. There seems to be a point, for me anyway, where my understanding shifts and I get clarity about what I want.
I saw this so clearly last year with a vehicle I wanted.
I was to receive money from my mom’s estate and decided that I wanted to buy a new vehicle. The vehicle I thought I wanted was being held for me at the car dealership while I waited for the details of the estate to be settled. But even with my excitement over finally being able to get a new car and the knowing that it would happen shortly, there was still something going on under my radar, because things came to a halt. Papers got misplaced, letters supposed to be mailed never were, signatures missed on forms that then had to be resent. This went on for months!
Finally, the estate was settled and the cheques mailed out and wouldn’t you know it? Canada post misplaced mine (not my sisters or my brother’s lol). It tok several days to sort that out, but those days were life-changing. I just had to laugh at the whole thing at that point. I know I create my own reality and had no one to blame but things were just getting ridiculous. As I meditated one day I got a huge revelation.
The vehicle on hold for me at Toyota was not what I wanted!
That new vehicle came with debt as I was only putting half down (until that point I thought it was worth it to get a brand new vehicle). In that moment I saw clearly how much I wanted to remain debt free. It was even more important to me than driving a new vehicle. So I looked at used ones and found a perfect 2 year old vehicle, which I am now loving every day! A big part of that joy comes in knowing I have no debt.
I want to add that the vehicle I now have has features I didn’t order on my brand new vehicle, such as leather interior which is so much easier to clean now that I have a dog! I love getting what my Source knows I really want instead of what I think I want!!